Wednesday, March 28, 2007

My Destiny, My Challenge... @ 1:23 PM

hey.... Having a "nice" 3 weeks holiday...

sometimes... i dun get it about my mother.... Can she just be understanding for just a F***ing moment abt us? Yes, we are now a teenager. A grown up teenager and an adult. We know how to take care... But some people dunnoe how to grow up to be one.

My mom is raised differently. Now is the 21st Century for crying out loud! This place is no more the villagers' life! The futuristic image is coming up! I don't care about the past... Let's carry on to the future! Hiding my darkness self is useless.... Pretending to be happy is not easy!!! And it can be tiring!

Sometimes i feel like screaming my f***ing head off!

For all these years, I was like a f***ing servant in the house! Cant just my parents lift their lazy fat ass up and do things on their own!!! They're f***ing fat now!!! Like a PIG!!! Can't they just move around and do stuff by themselves??? Take food for their own??? I know they're tired because of their work!

Parents just don't understand when they have forgotten about their teenage life previously. One day, i might end up like them... But I will not! I will not torture my future kids. Every night i kept thinking... Why am i born in this kind of family who is bossy and had a high priority rules?

Being the youngest in the family is annoying... Always had a tough obstacle... I feel like cutting myself but it doesnt help in any way! Cutting yourself doesnt solve anything but feeling remorseful about ourselves...

I am now sooo fucked up with my famliy. One runs away from home, one always think that we could not handle ourselves and the other one always get sensitive and never listen when one of us havent even finish our sentence.

I guess I am destined to be this way....

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

My Destiny, My Challenge... @ 1:23 PM

hey.... Having a "nice" 3 weeks holiday...

sometimes... i dun get it about my mother.... Can she just be understanding for just a F***ing moment abt us? Yes, we are now a teenager. A grown up teenager and an adult. We know how to take care... But some people dunnoe how to grow up to be one.

My mom is raised differently. Now is the 21st Century for crying out loud! This place is no more the villagers' life! The futuristic image is coming up! I don't care about the past... Let's carry on to the future! Hiding my darkness self is useless.... Pretending to be happy is not easy!!! And it can be tiring!

Sometimes i feel like screaming my f***ing head off!

For all these years, I was like a f***ing servant in the house! Cant just my parents lift their lazy fat ass up and do things on their own!!! They're f***ing fat now!!! Like a PIG!!! Can't they just move around and do stuff by themselves??? Take food for their own??? I know they're tired because of their work!

Parents just don't understand when they have forgotten about their teenage life previously. One day, i might end up like them... But I will not! I will not torture my future kids. Every night i kept thinking... Why am i born in this kind of family who is bossy and had a high priority rules?

Being the youngest in the family is annoying... Always had a tough obstacle... I feel like cutting myself but it doesnt help in any way! Cutting yourself doesnt solve anything but feeling remorseful about ourselves...

I am now sooo fucked up with my famliy. One runs away from home, one always think that we could not handle ourselves and the other one always get sensitive and never listen when one of us havent even finish our sentence.

I guess I am destined to be this way....